The northern wind has started blowing…
There was a time my head used to be calm but now it’s noisy all the time.
There was a time I used to think and talk logically which turned out to be correct most of the time. Nowadays all my decisions, all my choices are affected by my emotions. And the worst thing is those choices hurt sometime later.
There was a thing so promising in the beginning but now it is either changed or I believe so.
Prior I have no expectations from no one. Now I feel like I don’t have, actually I don’t have but there are some activities which lure me to expect and suddenly these activities stop. Now I feel the pain.
Let me tell you a story:
The invitee was at his home, got an invitation for a very private party. Inviter’s parents were shifted to their new apartment. So parties at regular intervals were feasible at the inviter’s house.
When the invitee reached the destination for the first time, the main gate was locked, but the front door of the house was open. The invitee rang the bell. Miss inviter opened the main gate, greeted with a smile. Invitee had never attended such party before. Several memorable moments were captured by the invitee.
After some days, there was another and another…
One day invitee and inviter were having a little chit chat, suddenly invitee remembered some of the best moments showing those captured media. Then the inviter said, it’s ok but try to keep them private to you only. Invitee agreed, Indeed invitee had no intention to publish to the air.
After several days miss threw a couple of parties. One day miss told about her insecurities, she is afraid that someday her parents might know about those secret parties. But how? If the invitee loses his possession of those media he captured. So the invitee deleted those.
Some more parties and everything was right. One day invitee again recorded some magical moments when he was high. But as soon as he became normal trashed those and notified miss about the same.
After that frequency of parties was reduced on mutual agreement.
Some more parties, some more …. invitee broke his lens just to avoid filming …. all good…
Again one day out of nowhere…. during an ongoing party miss cried out loud. It was her insecurities again who interrupted. And those continued to interrupt the future parties.
So miss stopped throwing a party.
Now invitee is living in his apartment far far away from miss.
But one evening miss came by to pick Mr invitee in her car. Invitee hoping a party after a long break. They both reached the destination the main gate was locked but the front door of the house was wide open. Miss reached for the key in her bag and opened the main gate. So now both are inside the premises but outside the house. Now miss inviter quickly ran into the house and locked the door. She peeked through the window and says “I know without you the party won’t be more enjoyable, I know you won’t ruin the party for sure but I am also afraid that someday my parents are going to know about these parties and things will be nasty. I am going to bed, good night.”
Now the fascinating thing is that invitee had to walk down all the way on his own.
